In It For The Parking

Crazy as it might sound, I think I'm finally, just now, finally getting back to myself... recovering from the stress of the bar exam... from the 100% stopping of life but for the eat-sleep-study-worry-blog/waste-time-on-Facebook cycle.

I actually showered today instead of taking a bath!

I know that might not sound like much, but standing, for more than 10 minutes, in cool water versus laying in warm water is a big difference. It requires a lot more energy. And I had it in me today. :)

Not only that, but yesterday I wrote a horribly bad song and ran to the other room to record it before I realized how bad it was and decided not to record it. BUT I DID NOT RIP UP THE LYRICS! So, there's that. Progress. I'm beginning to get out of my own way there at least. I can show the song-o-the-day for March 12. :) I have yet to write one for March 13, but I'm confident I will write... something by the end of the day.

I know that my most pressing commitment at the moment that I've been neglecting has been the MS Walk. I haven't done anything to really ask for donations or to bother people to join my team. Right now, I'm the team leader of a team of three. Now don't get me wrong, we are an awesome team of three, but I really envisioned Cripplocalype 2010 being a great HOARDE of people. So I'm asking because I really want people to walk with me and have fun together, please, whether you can afford to contribute even 1 CENT of your own money - PLEASE, JOIN CRIPPLOCALYPSE 2010 AND HELP US BRING AN END TO MS!. I promise, there may be other teams, but none will make fun of themselves as hard as we will, and none will rock so hard. \m/

Speaking of things that rock SO hard - few things are as fucking metal as weight-lifting. Starting this week, I'm getting back into using free weights after months and months of what can only be described as muscle atrophy. No matter how much it sucks, I'm going to try to use the same gumption I used every day to study in order to make myself exercise - because I know it's something that I genuinely DO want to do, whether I feel like I want to do it or not. I mean, hey... it's worked out so far, right?

This week is looking like it's going to be good. I've got lunches set up with friends. I'm trying to do things. I'm trying to always be better and do more - whether or not it messes with SSDI. I want to be better. Better is always the objective. Better is the best possible thing. And I've been feeling pretty good. I just wish it were good enough to be really looking forward to the board game night tonight. It's only 6 pm right now and I'm so ready to go to bed.

Oh well! I could sleep all day anyway. Do I take another 5 hr energy or do I go for a Red Bull? Believe it or not, one is actually more healthy than the other here. *lol* Last 5 hr energy I had was at 10 am.

I have discovered that there really is a limit to my abilities to post often. While I am reading many of your amazing posts, I’m limited to only a few hours a day that I can plan write and edit a post of my own.

As we climbed through The Lyric Theatre, the higher we went, the longer the area had been out of use. Many of the offices that now sat empty had once been the busy offices of doctors, insurance firms, unions, dentists and optometrists. With the doors off the hinges, the past lay open to us.



( Looking for that corner office [20 Photos behind the cut] )

It's not as stripey as I'd expected - but as this is the first time I've had my hair dyed professionally in 15 years, I think it turned out okay.

If I get it done again, I think I'll make it more obvious.
  

Presently, I am zoning out on the sofa watching mind numbing television.  As we all know, there are a hideous amount of commercials for different drugs and helpful supplements on the airwaves.  So what I want to know is:

Why are over active bladder drugs and probiotic commercials only geared at women?  Don't men have over active bladders and trouble keeping regular?  I just find it bizarre and wanted to share.

Thank you.  You can now return to your regularly scheduled Saturday.

Ugh...sometimes I forget that I lack some very basic kitchen tools and have to work around it.  Pain.In.The.Ass.  It just never occurs to pick them at the store because I flex these muscles so very rarely.

Why is that?

So my question is that I've been having eye pain and my eyes are really dry.  And my vision has also gotten more blurry.  I went to the eye doctor today and he checked in the eye and he says he wants to dilate the eye further to look in back to see if there are any signs of damage.  I need glasses though for the first time in my life.  I have astigmatism and I'm farsighted.  So I got my self a pair of glasses.  Another thing is they suspect cataracts in my eyes.  It doesn't look like I have any.  I mean they would be visual right and they usually appear in older people. I'm only 27, but he did that pressure test and suspected something from that and from the peripherial vision test.  He said I did ok on it but he wants to see when my eyes are fully dilated.  He also says I have pretty dry eyes so I got some cheap eye drops today.  After this I'm going to my neuro to tell him I've gone blurry over the past year.  I think he should treat this as MS because the lesion on my MRI show and point to MS.  

I know your vision is like the first thing that starts to go.  But I mean is that enough to diagnose someone with MS?  

I have my last day of class tomorrow.  I really am undecided if I am going to go or not.  I missed last week with some unforseen circumstances popping up and he had the class do a practice test that wasn't in our book that he was grading and going to over for the last class.  Without having it, going over the test not having done it seems kind of pointless since I will not have worked out the problems and he will be moving too quickly for me to figure what I did/didn't do right. It  raises my heart rate just thinking about it.

We'll see.

On a side note, after watching a Petsmart commercial, I miss my dog very badly!  However, he is doing well and my Mom apparently taught him how to scratch her back.  Well alright then...

Here's an article with a broad outline on the details of a cheap to construct, durable (will last for centuries), well-insulated, bulletproof, carbon-absorbing home, and how to get one.

Excerpt:

"It is possible with current technology to build houses that last essentially forever, barring direct hits from meteors or missiles. In fact, it is possible to do so with 1,000-year-old technology, as we can plainly see from examples still standing. These same houses can be carbon-neutral or even be net-carbon-negative, including providing all or most of the their own heat and hot water. These houses can be built for less than current construction.

Sound impossible? It’s not. It is very possible. There are working examples of net-zero homes that will last forever. Getting one free is the real trick, but it is can be done..."

The "getting it free" part is sketchy, but as for the actual concept of the home itself, it's great. I'm all for that way of home building. It meets pretty much all my criteria! I just wish there wasn't such a housing glut here in most areas of the US.

Thank you keshaphim for the squirrel love!!!

Milo thanks you too!

Well, they couldn't take my chaps in since they were custom made for me so I am really upset about it. They are dear to me because they were a very special present under a very special circumstance.

These chaps are hand made from The Leather Man NYC and are in PERFECT condition (I take excellent care of my leather).  They were cooing over them at ATL leather.  Waist size 36" but could fit as large as a 38".  Inseam 32" to accomodate for boot wear.  These I would resell for at least $150 (they were more than twice that), they are that well made, in that perfect condition and completely fucking spectacular if I do say so myself.

Through a series of fortunate discussions, the owner and I became fast friends and talked for a very long time.  They are custom making me a new pair for a fucking killing.  They are going to be SMOKIN'. I can't wait. So Yay for that.

CORRECTION: They are a 38" and could go to a 40"

Yes, I'm a posting whore today. Leave me alone.

I didn't think I was going to make it to the gym let alone have a good work out.  Then all it took was a single well placed email to set me the hell off and I had to blow steam off so I had a good work out.  Now, let's be honest, I am a sensitive boy and sometimes, just sometimes, I can take things personally that weren't meant to be so but some people, even family, just suck major donkey balls sometimes.

I did my shopping and it is amazing how ridiculously lost i am in my own super market when I am not shopping for my regular stuff.  I had to be in there for over 30 minutes in a state of ????? for some things.  Also, what exactly constitutes a medium sized potato? Isn't that subjective?

Shower and laundry.

Lady Gaga : Now Playing : Telephone (MUSIC VIDEO)

This is where I want ot go to prison. Done with Tarantino elements and with BeyoncE!

Joe Wheeler State Park - 2009

Oy.  Been up since 5:50am.  I went to bed relatively early I suppose but I think the psychological effect of looking at a clock and going oh-- it's early and you want to get up makes it harder.  And the damn birds, they were loud.

But you know what was more loud? It was open season for the super walrus fuckers x100.  Someone must have spiked their cool aid with Spanish fly or something because JEE-ZUS H CRYSTE last night.  You know, screwing in your bedroom is great.  Totally normally place to fuck. Maybe though, just maybe, they could try other places in their home. They don't, because I would know, because i am home all day, LOL. I'm just bitching and jealous I suppose- good for them.

So yay Friday.  I can totally appreciate Friday's even though I am not working because you can still feel that build up of communal energy toward the end of the working week and the relief that comes with it.

Alright, off to do...whatever. Too early to do anything else.

Oh and remember- clocks go ahead late Saturday night! YAY!

I *finally* can squeeze my big ass bear butt in to my 28 x 28 jeans.  Granted, they are "loose fit" variety due to my great birthing hips so in men's totally straight legged jeans I would probably wear a 32 to accommodate those hips and they are super duper fucking tight but it says 28 on the label and I am running with it muthafuckas.  If I can get my chaps mended, they are perfect chap jeans at this point because there is no saggy jean issue in the butt area. They should be a little less constricting in the next 3 weeks if all goes according to plan but still tight enough.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Frugal & Healthy is a new site that more broadly addresses the subject of frugal cooking and taking it up as part of your lifestyle, in a series of links under the "Contents" section. It's a little light on recipies right now (11 as of this writing), and the recipes lack cost estimates, but it still has good info. Of note is that it addresses whether or not to use organic food. I personally agree with the assessment made on that site. And if you're so inclined, there's much more information on the subject available.

Tomorrow I am going to be hitting the ATL Leather company to see if they can re-size my chaps. Once that's done there ain't no going back, if I gain anything I won't be able to fit in them so...good motivation to stay where I am.  I have my former's leather pants too that are just slightly too big for what you want leather pants to be but I think they are workable.  I will have to put them on and show them to someone.  No way I can shell out for new pants any time soon unless there is a sale beyond absolute belief that it would be criminal to turn down but that is not likely to be the case.  What I *may* end up getting is a new shirt of some kind since I love the feel of leather on me. I earned a shirt years ago that is wicked big on me so I feel ok buying a new shirt since I technically earned one already.

If anyone is interested, I do have another pair of leather pants, waist size 36" with lacing up the sides that I no longer need.  They are REALLY nice, heavy leather.  Of course, you have to wrangle with the fact that they have an inseam of about 30" because, after researching, I am 4" away from technically being a midget. I will sell them super cheap as I got those on a sale that was absolutely beyond belief at poster hut of all places and are in super condition. The shirt can go too, if anyone is interested, I believe it is a size 42 but there is no tag in it. It is short sleeve and in the style of a police officer but doesn't have any patches on it. I only ever wore it twice for some reason.

Anyway, just wanted to put that out there.  I can bring them to Fcon if anyone is interested and want to try them on and you will also be there.

I had lunch this afternoon at Stats sports bar downtown with about 14 of my former associates.  Only one other was cut and before I was  but probably 1/2 of them are on their end run in the next few weeks there.

ANYWAY...I went and met them at the building so I could drive and play catch up with 2 people in particular before it became madness at the bar.  And they brought me up on my old floor.  It was really kind of surreal walking the halls and amongst the cube farm I haven't in 6 months.  It was really good to see some other folks, I kind of avoided a few others, but it was just kind of weird. Just lots of memories that left me feeling melancholy but not in a bad way.

I have some things that I could be doing between now and about 4:15 when I need to leave again but I think I am just going to putz around on the interwebz and read my book.  Sounds good to me.

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